the weekend

I'm feeling very out of focus this morning.

I need some sort of reminder to be myself. I spent all weekend being quiet and ignoring things because I was afraid of looking weird while visiting Sarah's family. Maybe I just need to ask myself, "What's the worst that could happen?"

They could think that I'm judging them. Then they would resent me. But they wouldn't say anything. And the visit would be miserable. Or I could just be miserable by myself.

How many times will I come to the conclusion that it's better to just be present and honest with my feelings instead of forestalling some terrible imagined outcome?